What is wrong with me?

I think I'm narcissistic. I think I was born that way. When I was a toddler I remember telling my grandmother I was white I'm black..I guess white superior that sort thing. Also I remember my sister telling me I'm not your slave when I ask her to do something. I never had friends when I was 5 this girl told me I brag all the time and she would tell her mother on me. I'm almost out of my twenties. I don't know how to change. i don't even talk to people but they approach and say things like I can tell you are the youngnest child. I feel like I should just give on any kind of relationship with anyone